Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Joy Full

The summer holidays are quickly coming to an end. Back to school is in every store. Makes me think of the CNA advertisments in South Africa (CNA was a stationary store), after the Christmas/summer break (both one and the same), the jingle haunted and taunted every school child as it rang in their ears "back to school, back to reality"...shiver.....

The beginning of this summer season we were clueless as to what this next year would look like. We knew Josh was doing his teachers credential, but we didn't know if he would be in the internship program (therefore have a paid teaching position as well as getting his credential) or in the regular student teacher program (in the schools every day but not paid, and have other classes too). Josh took some summer courses online so that he would be "intern ready", so that if a position opened up and they were willing to hire an intern then he would be "ready". At the same time we were trying to prepare ourselves for the alternative, and be "ready" for that. Either direction is going to be hard for us, Josh will be busy with school and school. But in terms of finances the two options are opposite extremes! With the student teaching program I would be the sole breadwinner, my earnings only just covering our bills. With the internship we will be better off then we have ever been. For the last three months we have been living out the phrase "hoping for the best, expect the worst". I utterly trust God in whichever direction he wants to take us.

When I first thought about this year and our potentially very tight budget, I had a really hard time with it, one reason was because we weren't going to be able to see coldplay!! (how silly is that!). The fact that I had a hard time with it distressed me even more. I wanted to have a good attitude. God really challenged me on my attitude that evening (this was before our trip to Canada). I retreated upstairs to my bed (my favorite place to read my bible and spend time with God). Every verse I read was about being tested and considering our trials and suffering as joy. The more I read the more the weight lifted off my shoulders and my attitude changed. I literally came downstairs a changed person. I was actually excited for this potentially hard year. I was excited for what God wanted to show and teach us through it all, that he wanted to refine me and work on my heart. That he wanted me to learn to be content. That it would make our marriage stronger in Him. I had peace. Even though it is all still very much up in the air, I had peace, confidence, that whatever happens, we are loved by an awesome, and faithful God who is our provider. YAY!

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."
James 1:2-4

This time last week we had resolved ourselves to the fact that Josh would be going into Student teaching as nothing had come of any of the jobs he had applied for. So Josh signed up online for classes and went to Starbucks to pick up an application (we thought a Starbucks job, would work well with his school schedule and bring a little bit in to help financially), he ended up having an interview at Starbucks. Later that evening Josh's dad called saying that one of the schools had called back. Josh had an interview on Friday......

Yesterday they called and he got the job!

It was like a weight lifted off both of us in that moment, a weight I don't think we were fully aware of, it was almost unreal. I have always loved the saying " peace is joy at rest and joy is peace dancing", demonstrating how the two go hand in hand....well I am definitely dancing!! What a faithful God we serve, our awesome provider!!! This year is going to be tough, and God knew this and lifted some of the weight by providing for us in a big way. Just like Him and his perfect timing to be last minute!! Ha ha!

2 comments:

Brian said...

Congrats on the job Josh!

melissa said...

hey! "peace is joy at rest and joy is peace on its feet (or dancing)" has always been one of my faves too...and it is an anne lamott quote. :-)